prolonging

for the past few days, i've been watching the first season of desperate housewives with aggie and cho. i got this last month pa, but i just started last week, and im still in the fifth cd. i like to watch it when im not stressed or if i have nothing better to do. so, ive been doing that lately. i think i like to prolong things, not to finish it all at once. i mean i dont want to finish it naman in one watching, i want to reserve it for the times, times of uncertainity and nothingness. i like it that way. same goes with the books ive bought in national bookstore, cubao 2 months ago, they are all stuck in my shelf. before, i get to finish one book a week but now, the last book that im reading, i had it for a month now, inside my bag. so it makes me feel comfortable that i still have 3 books waiting to be read. i can read it naman if i have spare time naman diba?

also, my acquiring habits have been declining lately. its not that im saving a lot, im not believe me- i want to!, but im not. ive seen a lot of things that i want to buy, like the wallet i saw in topman, the bag i saw in esprit, the shirt i saw in.... i know na di naman siya masyadong mahal but i want to learn to control myself and be diplomatic in the way i deal with it. before, whenever i would see something i like, i get it agad. impulsive?? but no i guess ive seen the value of money na. pero there are some things that doesnt require me to think twice - food, music, books.. i think kasi when it comes to shirts, shoes and bags - i have so many of it that i can definitely live without having another. im just trying to control myself though.

hey - i need desperate measures to save up. im thinking if my plan would push though, which should push through, i need to pay it on my own. i cant expect my parents to still pay things for me. so i need to take that into consideration - BIG consideration.
i have two reasons for my upcoming trip:
1. my 23rd birthday
2. my first year here in the office
- i know these are dull reasons, but these are the reasons for me to enjoy and celebrate. hahaha.

one more thing, im getting bigger na here sa office, the "sumpa" must be true, but i wont let that happen. i need to do something. maybe trying new food isnt for me.