what i really want for christmas

so as christmas comes nearer, i realized that my previous posts about all the material things i want -- ah, yeah i dont really want them, and i dont really need them. if i wanted them so badly, then i should have got them na, but no.. hindi pala yun ang gusto ko. and there is only one thing i want, if i need to sacrifice anything, for that to happen, i will. i promise i will do it, wholeheartedly. and i am going to do it now. i am going to start sacrificing for the sake of that thing.

anyway, i promise to get over some things in my life.. and start living my life the way i was supposed to live it. the way i dreamed to live it. enough about the people, enough about what i had back then, i guess its time to move forward and go on with my life. during last nights conversation with a friend over sushi, i realized, that i was just holding on to nothing, holding on to something i dont even have control of, and even if that is something, i am holding to it too much that i just cant enjoy how things are supposed to be. so enough about the whole hoolabaloo. things will get better.

so shucks. actually my post is contradicting. pero bahala na si batman. basta i gotta do something.

i am excited to post pictures from our adobo party last saturday.. ayayay!!

ho-hum!!!

i long to see that face
something warm, familiar and pretty
i long to breathe the same air
that unite's, uplife's and rejuvenate's my soul

it may seem that everything is in order
but i am not
a dysfunctional system
with only distant memories

life is a miserable joke
once there, looking for another
life is a wandering soul
looking for a place that one's call home

i am neither happy nor sad
i guess im trying to ignore and block it away
i am neither strong nor weak
i guess i just grew up a little too soon.

tooo sleepy tooo function

i am too sleepy since i woke up really early to be here at the office by 7am... i went to my lola's birthday party with guest i dont know who. anyways, im here right now... last sunday, i got to see enteng kabisote at the boob tube since i havent seen it in the cinema (thank God), my dad was making fun of me in a weird way because why do i want to watch that kind of film daw.. it was number 1 in the box office nga nung 2004 MMFF. hehehe. hey, enteng kabisote is a pinoy icon, for me ah. i consider him to be one of pinoy's greatest fantasy/comedy.

well, 2005 was such a great year, with great music and movies too. i guess, i gotta list down the list that does it for me:

1. kelly clarkson rocked 2005. at first i really didnt like her or was not impressed.. but with since u been gone-behind these hazel eyes releases. i totally am converted to enjoy listening her music.
2. black eyed peas' (monkey business) featuring the single: dont lie - one of my favorites. basically, i just enjoyed listening to their album.
3. rob thomas going solo, does this mean that matchbox twenty will be gone now.. i better get their albums na.
4. marron 5's live album.. i will borrow it from carla and burn it. hehehe. great tracks include: sunday morning and must get out.
5. gwen stefani - what will happen to no doubt?! aarrghh! hollaback girl and cool are great choices for this year.
6. mariah carey - her "we belong together" swept me and still makes me want to listen to it over and over. how pathetic!

haay. see ya next week.. im off to singapore.

back to basics

it took me a really long time to be able to think and write down my first entry for the year... i guess i just waited for my mood to get a little bit brighter. i was so drowned and swamped with things to do at the first week of the year that i was afraid that it might be 2006's trend, which i hope not. i mean during that vaca, i needed to bring the laptop sa province. its not that i'm complaining, i just want everything to go smoothly, well planned... as it is, super puno, and i know naman that people know cause super puno ang boards with meeting and scheds.. i just hope this year will be better..

i guess, im in the right mood now to write all these stuff.. i just find it so refreshing to get out of the office, grab some snack or late lunch whatever that might mean. and to be able to make kwento's lang.. haay.

i'm just really looking forward to my trip next week. although i'm thinking of getting back na at the 30th, which means i need to take a 8-day leave.. hahaha.. but, thinking about it, there are so many things that i need to do, unfinished work, conprobe here and there, sometimes i even doubt na whether i really like what i'm doing.. i think my trip will do me good, and maybe when i get back, i do have the answers already. or maybe indications even.

christmas day is over

24th of december
our christmas turned out to be realyl a different one this year. usually dec. 24's dinner is held at my uncle's house, with my ama-"lola".so we had our usual dinner composed of pancit malabon, christmas ham, roast chicken and soup - the one with fresh ingridients that you will put in and wait for it to boil. i forgot how we call it, but its good.
after dinner, together with my sibling, we went to hear mass at the village's church. the problem was the mass went on for about an hour and a half. i hated every minute of it. mass should stick the 40minute or 60minute rule. people has their own limits you know...

after hearing the mass, and saying goodbye to my mom's side of the family, we walked a few blocks and went to dad's side of the family.. in time for the noche buena. there we had lechon, steaks,penne carbonara (which i cooked) ehm!, relenong bangus, and many more. i didnt pay attention to itsince i was so damn full that i could hardly think of food. but when dessert came, i had to get my share of buko salad - it was a family tradition, and i had to do my part of eating it. haha!

after, together with 6 cousins of mine, we played poker.. i won. i think its the first time i wonin that game, although we seldom play na din.. last time i was 3rd place, and now i won a total of Php400. My aunts naman during that time was playing mah-jong, i think it was uncle chiok who won.



25th of december
usually, we would get up late na and tired from last night, but last 25th was different, since we had to wake up mga 10am, we went to tagaytay. by 1130 am we were leaving, and we arrived 230pm na in time for our lunch, we were super hungry na by thattime that we have to go get candies na.had lunch at max's tagaytay, we were suppose to be in josephine's but ang daming tao.

after our late lunch, we went to tagaytay highlands' at tumambay lang kami dun. we went to the highest peak, where there is a coffee shop, all of us ordered coffee or hot cocoa. believe me super lamig. i needed a jacket, buti na lang my uncle lent me one. after went to a resto that was similar to pop tate's if ever yuo are reading archie and the gang.. i think its name was geraldine's eh. it was cool, parang relieving the past that di ko na inabutan. wasting our time in tagaytay. we went back to manila and had dinner at century park hotel.

christmas day was exhausting, i wasnt the one who drove all the way there, but staying inside the car with the traffic in tagaytay and south super - ate up all my energy.

my last post before christmas day

this week is one crazy week, the past few days have been so much fun. from the accounts/strat dinner we had last monday at people's palace and inuman session in segafredo afterwards.everything was going light and fun. christmas definitely makes people happy.

our freakshow themed chrsitmas party was a blast, may i say.. everyone was dancing come the end of the night, objective achieved. hehe! its the time when people let loose of themselves, start to be tipsy and drunk! suddenly speaks straight english, partied like crazy... and that described us during that night.

imagine all of us partying with our president, coo, strat planning director,executive creative director, business manager and coo of media. and they were also dancing like there will be no tomorrow. i havent had that kind of fun for the longest time, last i remember was during our cebu trip with the college barkada. we danced in the bar like we owned it. so i thank people who did cooperate in shaking people out of their senses and transformed them into dancing kings and queens.. to juls,angel and kaye.. you guys are the best GRO in town.

(LtoR: me, kaye, julette,paulo,cholo,ana,enzo,mr.manny)

this week also, i received tons of gifts.. and i love every single bit of them. so i am grateful to all those who have remembered me and put so much thought to those beautiful things. i wont write down all in here, but some na lang..

julette - ang ganda, promise. alam mo ang taste ko ah, and even my siblings liked it.

kaye - maraming salamat! cute red shirt.

joan - super salamat.. na-touch talaga ako, kasi with it maalala kita parati.

pau - your weird/crazy but cute taste reflected sa gift mo. salamat. kelangan ko nun.

ags and cho - thank you for the bastos-written text in my shirt. and sa cd shempre.

also, there is one thing that i am really grateful for. thank you to the GASSO and CLUBMEDIA mancom. for recognizing my contribution and acknowledging me as the "rookie of the year". i will treasure that feeling and appreciation. and million thanks to people GASSO and CLUBMEDIA officemates and friends who have taught me so much and made my past year in GASSO fun. to the officemates - becuase you guys are so kind, helpful, considerate and understanding. and my firends - for our field trip's, lunch outs, veranda talk, ym's. kwento, dinner out... thank you. :)

merry christmas to everyone...

season's finest

this is the season to be jolly.. la la la la la, la la la la....
i love christmas -- especially this year, when everything is going right.

last friday, i had dinner with my high school classmates (jas,bon,bede&jc,jeff,les,tim) in redwood in morato... then we were looking for a place so we can transfer to a much quiet place. we were supposed have dessert at conti's in connecticut but its closed na, so we had it at chili's na lang. all time chili's.. hehehe. so everything was fine although i find it kinda bitin nga lang. sayang, we should have talked more, pero okay lang. we'll see each other pa naman, especially (les,jeff and bon) - we're having the massage!! haha.

that saturday, one thing that signals christmas is how traffic it can get. from my place in qc, we went to poduim, and it took us 1 hour and 30 mins.. so we just went around, and got to eat (again) floss from breadtalk.. thank god for breadtalk.. it saved my life from walking the whole strech of megamall, and with so many people window-shopping. both my siblings were trying to ask me what i like as my christmas present cause they were finding it very hard to look a gift for me. so we went to topman, and after a much debate, got a shirt. they also got me a christmas cd. i love christmas songs, and it sucks not to listen to one in the car when its that time of the year. - at least now i get to listen to it all the time. so i got my presents from my whole family. of course my parents gave the 3 of us money, in my case, out of awa cause they were saying that my christmas shopping left me broke daw. hehehe. - and take note these things are not for me. :)

sunday - had lunch at san bashi. this is a japanese resto beside pantalan ng maynila in roxas. i swear that i am not a big fan of japanese resto's with kimpura in mind, but they just have good food. i lovetheir mushrooms with garlic. i also love their kobe beef and this fish that i dont know the name cause it sounded weird that is available to few certain places lang is soo good.!!! so there. that lunch made my day. hopefully the rest of the week as well.