what i really want for christmas

so as christmas comes nearer, i realized that my previous posts about all the material things i want -- ah, yeah i dont really want them, and i dont really need them. if i wanted them so badly, then i should have got them na, but no.. hindi pala yun ang gusto ko. and there is only one thing i want, if i need to sacrifice anything, for that to happen, i will. i promise i will do it, wholeheartedly. and i am going to do it now. i am going to start sacrificing for the sake of that thing.

anyway, i promise to get over some things in my life.. and start living my life the way i was supposed to live it. the way i dreamed to live it. enough about the people, enough about what i had back then, i guess its time to move forward and go on with my life. during last nights conversation with a friend over sushi, i realized, that i was just holding on to nothing, holding on to something i dont even have control of, and even if that is something, i am holding to it too much that i just cant enjoy how things are supposed to be. so enough about the whole hoolabaloo. things will get better.

so shucks. actually my post is contradicting. pero bahala na si batman. basta i gotta do something.

i am excited to post pictures from our adobo party last saturday.. ayayay!!

ho-hum!!!

i long to see that face
something warm, familiar and pretty
i long to breathe the same air
that unite's, uplife's and rejuvenate's my soul

it may seem that everything is in order
but i am not
a dysfunctional system
with only distant memories

life is a miserable joke
once there, looking for another
life is a wandering soul
looking for a place that one's call home

i am neither happy nor sad
i guess im trying to ignore and block it away
i am neither strong nor weak
i guess i just grew up a little too soon.